I have tasted the harshness of a heart not trusting God – a heart that looked at my circumstances or what had been done, I have defended myself – I have fought for myself- I have pushed myself- I have grabbed hold -I have withdrawn and I have worn Gods shoes -all instead of trusting in him- y’all Its what I did my whole life.
Oh but I have also tasted the sweet rewards of letting all that go and looking to, focusing on – and trusting in my God. Trusting him with my life- my circumstances-with other people- with My purpose.
I much prefer this place of supernatural peace.
And guys- it’s not a one and done- it’s a constant shaking off the doubts and fears -redirecting my focus- my heart- choosing him over and over and over. It’s crazy how much He shows off in that space!
He really does have the best for us. He really is enough. He really does fight our battles ( when we don’t get our hands mixed up in the mess). He really does have a perfect plan for our lives.
We hold so much power when we know this and pray from this place. It’s astounding how quickly he can turn something around.
When I’m sitting here reading his word, writing hope filled words. It’s secondary. My obedience comes from this joyful place of letting go… it’s not about me at all- it isn’t the action of my being good or doing good, (all great things) it’s my heart that matters – my longing for closeness, the hunger for Him, more understanding of who He is and the result from that communion with Him is a different bigger peace and joy of fully trusting in Him.
I can’t do anything without His already being there. I can’t go anywhere or get lost from Him. The freedom I feel in Him…I can’t even make it make sense-
It doesn’t matter what any single person thinks of us, says to us, does to us. It truly truly only matters who God actually is and He knows us -knows every single thought and deed we have done or not done- and every single thing we will think or do in the futures and He still welcomes us at His feet with loving hands touching our unworthy heads. He is still the father who sees us coming even as we are a far way off- waiting and watching for our prodigal hearts that keep leaving him for our own ways.
We choose -to trust him with our whole lives, trust him with our childrens lives, trust him with our every fear, every desire and hard time, every decision. Trust him with those that hurt us, do harm.
With Him- It’s absolutely not about doing the right things, saying the right things, being with the right people, reading the right scriptures, doing the right studies. You can have the entire Bible memorized and still not be known by Him.
It’s about trust. Faith is about trust. That is the foundation of everything. And you can’t trust what you don’t have a relationship with.
This is how I know my God loves every single human heart. He loves the sinner that is me. Immensely. And -his nature is not mine- His love welcomes every sinner that wants to know Him. Every sin, every sinner- is welcomed- each heartbeat wanted, created and loved by my God.
Just very grateful for that. Amen.