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The quiet time

27 Jul

The quiet time.

The quiet time

27 Jul

Psalm 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

We are not meant to travel this life alone. God saw this immediately and created Eve. The Bible itself is a story of relationships; God and us, woman and man, friendships.

Loneliness is a very real threat to our peace. We fear it because it is uncomfortable, it feels sad.Loneliness can sneak in and grab hold, robbing us of our joy.

If you process your loneliness with purpose, it can be as vital to our spiritual maturity as our relationship to God and our fellowship is.

Loneliness feels awful; I described it to a close friend “I’m so lonely I almost can’t breathe”. Recently (last night, lol) I was looking forward to a night of quiet. I found myself not enjoying the quiet, so I walked for a short while alone. There was thunder in the distance (I love thunderstorms). Suddenly this weight of a wish, of having a someone walk with me, the holding of hands; The memory of having someone or the idea of someone, a man.

It hit me hard. I am not used to this thought process or desire for companionship this way.

There was much comfort in the reaching out to my understanding friend. It made the weight bearable, not desperate. From that I sought to understand my heart.

Loneliness is not unique, we all fight it at times. It has no bearing on the quality of the relationships in our lives. I would have said it was ego based, the lack of acceptance of where we are at in this exact moment; Instead, I found there is a very real reason for our loneliness, it is essential for our spiritual growth.

In my journey through my heartbreak, I have relied on loving friendships that walk with me and keep me moving forward. I don’t know why I haven’t been focused on finding a relationship, I just haven’t been. I love my relationship with Christ, my family and the friends, male and female. It was enough.

So what was this loneliness that blindsided me? I believe it was God’s whisper; reassuring me, reminding me, and opening my heart to new hopes. He places those hopes in our heart. He wants to bless me, but I have to be ready to receive those blessings. I have to trust His timing, His desires for me, His plans for my life.
In my pain, I built a wall around my heart that would prevent me from seeing all that He would place in front of me.

When we have pain or uncomfortable feelings, like loneliness, we can surrender to the Devil that would take us down the path of self pity. Or we can lean into the feeling, and let Him guide us through; trusting that we are meant to be in pain for this moment and He will open our eyes to new understanding.

I understand His teaching. He is preparing me. I trust Him completely. It may not be today, it may not be this year. There is a plan for my future that includes
a man that God has hand-picked for me. My friendships will flourish, my light will grow and my heart will continue to soften because He loves me that much.

I choose to trust that and to share that. If we are sharing our hearts with others, there is no room for loneliness.

Psalm 27:10 For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the LORD will take me in.
Hebrews 13:5 Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Matthew 28:20 teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”
1Samuel 12:22 For the LORD will not forsake his people, for his great name’s sake, because it has pleased the LORD to make you a people for himself.
John 14:18 “I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.
Romans 8:35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?
Romans 8:39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.