Archive | April, 2017

One Door Closes

25 Apr

I closed a chapter today.

I sent the “other woman” a letter. This will be my one and only contact of this woman. She is not really a part of my story.  If she knew about me, then I needed to forgive her. If she didn’t know about me, then she needed to know the truth. End of chapter.

What remains in my heart is this deep cry to the body. Cry to the church. Cry to my brothers! Cry to my sisters. Why? Why do you react so harshly to homosexuality and turn a blind eye to the friend engaging in porn? To your friend that sleeps around? To your friend that cheats? To divorce?

There is a war going on. Am I the only one seeing this? I am left to wonder ; Why isn’t my church body standing strong together, men helping men in their struggles with fidelity, with lust, with temptation that seems to be a struggle for the large part of the male church.

Women have so many opportunities to share their hearts. To be sharpened and encouraged by one another; To be supported, and held in times of trial and temptation.We sin in the same ways. I understand this but lust seems to be a stronghold for a vast majority of men.

Men of courage, step up, speak out, speak truth.  We need you desperately. We don’t need your opinion of other’s, we need your leadership and strength. We need your courage.

There is so much temptation, we need our men to help one another. We need the church to speak up about sexual sin and how weak the flesh is. We need to acknowledge that we are carnal, saved by Grace. We need the men of God to lead, support and encourage one another in truth. We women need to openly pray against the darkness that wants to separate.  We women need to pray together for the men of this world to step up. We need to pray for our hearts to be softened to being lead. Biblical leadership is beautiful. Honoring.

Lies cause us so much harm. The seeds of destruction begin with the smallest of lies. Truth is vital to having a relationship with Christ. Not because He expects it.  Satan has free access to all things kept in the dark. When we are truthful, we bring things into “the light”. The truth shall set you free truly means you let go of the bondage that a lie holds on you.

We are lying to ourselves when we look at things outside of ourselves. We can only truly be transformed, redeemed and made whole by Jesus Christ. One body for one Christ.

I long to see righteous men, rising up, leading by truth, love, mostly, by the Spirit. Lord ,I beg it of you. Teach us.

Keep in Step with the Spirit

16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 17 For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law. 19 Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, 20 idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, 21 envy,[d] drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do[e] such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

This Story

19 Apr

When you find yourself devastated by someone else’s free will, there are steps we as Christians must take. We must take them in order to keep God as our idol. We have to give him the first and the most of this and not the person, the feelings or the fallout.

What does that mean?

First, we must submit to God. He is the authority over all, none is higher or more powerful than He.  Nothing, and I mean NOT ONE THING, comes to us without going through His hands first.  (Jeremiah 1:4-5)

If we are going to trust Him, we must trust in every moment.  One of the hardest parts of being Christian, for me, is to trust in something when I can’t see down the road. I struggle to “let Jesus take the wheel”. Job had to figure out that God was all knowing, and capable of determining his future. Ah. Yes.

When hard times come and we can’t see how it will turn out, our peace is challenged. Our ego is challenged.  Never allow Satan to distract you from where your treasure and hope reside, we do know how this will turn out.

Beloved, write these words on your heart!

Do not give to Satan in fear, what is meant to give to God in obedience. (Trust, faith and hope).

When everything is shattered and you don’t know where the pieces will land and you are terrified,hurting and powerless, just be in that, and submit. Like Job.(Job  42:2, Romans 8:28) )

Pour your heart out to God, Processing this as it comes, will help you from allowing seeds that are not of God, to enter your journey. (Philippians 4:13)

We need to sift the devastation to remove the idol of people and any unforgiveness.

You need to focus on truth. Your battle is not with a person. Your battle is with Satan.

Your devastator is losing their battle with darkness. This truth should remove any opportunity for Satan to start lying to you. Remind yourself that you are still in bosom of God and not lost at sea. God still has you, you are still the apple of His eye. Nothing can change God except for how you perceive Him. That is YOUR free will.

Your devastator is far from God by choice;  lost in sin and destruction. This should break your heart for them, more than for yourself, allowing for forgiveness and compassion over their choices; We should cry out for God to have mercy on their brokenness.

We must guard our hearts against every lie this carnal world will tell us. Do everything you can to forgive the devastating choices they made and the consequences of that.  Pray for them. They are dancing with Satan! Allow that pitiful thought to break your heart far more than the consequence their choice had on you. How devastating is their future? This makes me cry!

You know who has you in the palm of His hand. He is the light on your path. He is your comforter. You have a beautiful inheritance waiting for you.(Psalm 16:5-10)

Let me paint the picture:

There are two boys building a fort together. They have spent countless hours together. They have planned, gathered materials and tools; They are best friends. They are on a mission together. Suddenly, they come to a problem. One boy starts to reassess,  trying to figure out the challenge, issue. He goes inside to ask his dad for guidance. His dad gives them some instructions. While they are working at this the second boy sees another boy walking  by with a baseball bat on his way to the park. The second boy says I am going to play ball. They have a bit of an argument and he says to  his best friend, I hate the fort, your stupid and it’s your fault, this is not fun anymore. He runs after the boy with the baseball bat. They walk off arm in arm.

The boy left with the fort now has choices: He can sit and cry and do nothing. He can run after the one that left and quit building the fort. He can run back inside to his dad and ask him to come out and help him overcome the problem and complete the fort together.

My God wrote this story.  We can only read one word, one page, one chapter at time. I am enthralled by the storyline of my life.

My story is a good story. (Hebrews 12:1)



18 Apr

“This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”‭‭Psalms‬ ‭118:24‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Beloved, rise up. Regardless of what sorrow is with you, rejoice anyway! 

The heaviness of life can seem overwhelming at times, but! But! We have a conqueror that goes before us. 

Trust in our perfect Father, trust in His perfect plan. Even when it hurts so badly,even when it’s more than you feel you can bear! Trust in Him and tell Him everything. 

Satan loves to mess with us when we have trials. Guard your thoughts and your heart. 

Let’s also be wise in our trial. Let’s remember, this is just a new trial. We’ve had many other trials before this one. Satan will make you think you can’t do this. Yes, you can! You! Are a lioness! Rememer! You have walked through the valley before and you will arrive on the other side again. 

If you want truth, look back and see that you had many trials, many times of hardship, even times of despair – and they are all behind you. You had times between those trials of absolute happiness. 

Let that comfort you, give you supernatural peace. Please, don’t give Satan your fear. 

The past shows us- with Christ, we can do all things. We can do the furnace with Him by our side.

This is our joy in the midst of sorrow. That even though we may be walking through hell, we are not walking alone and this will not last. 

Truth is truth. So wake up and rejoice in this day that you still get to hope for the future, that you get to be loved so very much. That you are free! That you will meet someone today that needs your joy!