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25 Jul

I have struggled lately with feeling invisible. Alone. We all do at times. This morning I read these words “God sees. He sees what you do quietly. When no one is watching. When no one gives you the credit.”

I am instantly humbled by my selfish need for more than Him! For the approval and love of man.

He is all that I need and more, and when the lie of alone or not enough creeps in- I need to worship Him even more!Humbled, bold, extravagant, crazy worship! I mean full on praise and adoration. Glorifying Him even in the worst of our times and trials.

He remains the same whether we exalt Him or forget about Him. It has already been promised and spoken. He sees us, He never forsakes us. He loves us and refreshes our souls. Whether we ever accept that or not.

We just need to stay the course, focused – our hearts set on Him and not of this world.

To have a mind so set on Him that you could be completely outcasted, thrown away, and still be so consumed with worship for Him!

It’s not my sorrow that separates me, I draw nearer in my rawness, it’s when I care too much about my place in this world. What I don’t have. Like Mary and Martha. I want to stay like Mary – “I want to sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand, lay back against you and breathe, feel your heartbeat.”

If we train our mind like our body, to refocus our thoughts from us back to Him, we will find abundant joy and peace there. Amazing love!

Lord help me to lose myself in my worship of you! Amen!

“Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.”

‭‭Galatians‬ ‭1:10‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Never Alone

13 Dec

Spending the evening with a community of givers, showering 24 foster boys with love and gifts for Christmas, filled my heart to overflowing.

The night turned my thoughts to the evident, loving hand of God. These boys have struggled and some have gone through things none of us can imagine, some of us can.  If you could have been in that room full of the body that cares, witnessing the gifts they gave the boys, in presents and presence; You would feel humbled and moved, cup overflowing too.

Some of these boys stand out in a great way, they have a strength, a light about them. Some are just doing the very best they can, finding their way.
I have been reflecting on the people I am surrounded with, each has suffered deep hurts or loss. Some from rejection and abandonment, some the loss of someone they loved way before they were ready to say goodbye. God has surrounded me with these beautiful, raw souls. They have taught me so much. He opened my eyes, when I stopped seeing my own pain and started seeing theirs.

What stands out to me is that this world ebbs and flows with goodness and evil, but the God of the bible, never, ever changes. His promises stay the same. His Love stays the same.

When He sent the sweetest Christ child to be born for us, our lives were transformed forever. We can just get too lost in this messed up, broken world when we think it’s supposed to be so easy. When we try to do this alone.

Truth is; When we accept our Savior, we are never alone again. When that sweet baby grew,  taught us, and finally died on the cross for us; He promised to leave us with the Holy Spirit.  He didn’t abandon us. This is the gift that allows us to endure all things. This helper, this guide, this friend that dwells within us, never leaves us. Holds us, whispers Peace into our crazy lives.

There are no completely rejected people on this earth. When Christ died for us, we became co-heirs.  We are all welcomed, we are all wanted, we are pursued relentlessly! He longs to have a relationship with each of us. Being a Christian is about who He is, it isn’t about who we are. It isn’t about what we do, but rather what He does in us.

Like Job, our testing of faith will never be easy, our journey will never be without trial, hurt and sorrow. Nothing in that bible says it will, but our faith will grow stronger within us when we stay close to Him.

Most know Psalm 23. “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death”.
We have to walk through the valley to get to the other side. We can’t go around it, we can’t avoid it. We must go through that valley but it also says “the shadow”. Shadowing only happens when there is light present. He is that bright and shining light at all times, proof again that we never walk alone.

May you find your peace, your hope, your joy in Him. He is all we need. He refreshes us, builds us up, strengthens us, and gives us hope for the future. Amen.

This is from my devotional today. It says it way better than I can. Be blessed.

 

Worse than not having anyone close is to be rejected by the one person you thought you could count on. 

 

When memories of rejection dominate our thoughts, it’s because we are putting human relationships in first place. The way out of that gloom is to let God take his throne back in our lives. Sometimes God allows us to be rejected and burned by other people so that his steadfast love will shine all the brighter. “Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me” (Psalm 27:10).

 

When you read the stories of the books of Joshua and Judges, you get the sense that God will do absolutely anything–even breaking the very laws of the universe he created–to make the lives of his people better. If God’s faithful love and promises are the first thing we trust in and depend on, everything else will fall into place in its time. When you know that you can absolutely depend on the Lord’s affection for you, you can face anything. “In the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock” (Psalm 27:5).

– time of grace

 

Only the Lonely

14 Dec

Galatians 2:20(NIV)
20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

The truest of Christmas joys is mine as full understanding of what Hope lies in this season settles on my heart; The richness is beyond words, lonely too.

I am in a refining time. He is grooming me, working in me, preparing and pruning me. It is uncomfortable yet inspires great hope in me and can be a very lonely time for me as well.

There is something about this Holy connective state that separates me, not just from the world itself but I even feel set apart from other Christians. It is like being in “The Zone” with Him, suddenly the world just doesn’t fit. It requires time alone with Him, and He creates it. It is a time for deep,quiet reflection. Being in constant touch with Him, creates a distance from others and a need for silence (and I am not a silent girl!). I have a longing to share this with someone, but how can you share this?

This is beyond words. He fills my heart to overflowing yet even in that I have a longing. This relationship at times feels so impossible, at others, so rich, so lyrical, enlightened and inspiring. Growing times can be so difficult, as we become perfected in His teaching, prepared for what our journey brings us to.

What I find so curious, the more I learn, the more I need to seek. He creates an appetite to learn more, to gain more understanding and clarity, yet what is clear today becomes less clear. Obedience is easy and difficult;Wisdom elusive, yet ours for the asking. Oh what a rich life!
The road to become Holy is not easy…But Wow! What a blessing!

John 17:6-18 (NIV)

Jesus Prays for His Disciples

6 “I have revealed you[a] to those whom you gave me out of the world. They were yours; you gave them to me and they have obeyed your word. 7 Now they know that everything you have given me comes from you. 8 For I gave them the words you gave me and they accepted them. They knew with certainty that I came from you, and they believed that you sent me. 9 I pray for them. I am not praying for the world, but for those you have given me, for they are yours. 10 All I have is yours, and all you have is mine. And glory has come to me through them. 11 I will remain in the world no longer, but they are still in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, protect them by the power of[b] your name, the name you gave me, so that they may be one as we are one. 12 While I was with them, I protected them and kept them safe by[c] that name you gave me. None has been lost except the one doomed to destruction so that Scripture would be fulfilled.

13 “I am coming to you now, but I say these things while I am still in the world, so that they may have the full measure of my joy within them. 14 I have given them your word and the world has hated them, for they are not of the world any more than I am of the world. 15 My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. 16 They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. 17 Sanctify them by[d] the truth; your word is truth. 18 As you sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world.


Romans 13:14 (NIV)
14 Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.[a]

Romans 12:2(NIV)
2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Proverbs 27:7
One who is full loathes honey from the comb,
but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet.