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Betrayed

29 Mar

“For the Son of Man must die, as the Scriptures declared long ago. But how terrible it will be for the one who betrays him. It would be far better for that man if he had never been born. “ Mark 14:21 NLT

Wow! This jumped off the page from my devotional.
This passage is one small one from a very powerful chapter. The Last Supper. I have thought about this all day.  I discussed this with a couple of wise friends.
Easter is such a powerful, redemptive, hope-filled, thoughtful time. What better time is there to discuss the importance of salvation? I am going to do my best to share my thoughts on this during this Holy Maunday Thursday

My first thought is this: Our lives are mapped out long before we are born. God creates each of us. Judas was created, for his purpose. His purpose was to betray Our Lord.

It is so hard for me to think that some people are not called. Some people just live in this world and never go to heaven. We want to think that everyone does. It’s painful to really sit and think there was a disciple bound for the Lake of Fire for all eternity.
Jesus said in Matthew 7:13-14 “You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and it’s gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it.”
In Luke 13:24, he said “ Work hard to enter the narrow door to God’s Kingdom, for many will try to enter but will fail.

My second observation is this: Jesus loved Judas. He knew he would betray him and loved him, his enemy, as the perfect example for us.

It isn’t enough to just say it,  you must love the Lord with all your heart and also, you must love your neighbor as yourself.

This includes the Judas in your life. Yes, even your Judas.  Jesus loved Mary and he loved Judas. There is just no other word’s to say about that.

In my wish to see all things be loving and wonderful  and everyone to be blessed and know Jesus, even those that have harmed me; In my heart that is more jaded, more cautious, (I am still me under it all), this heart absolutely loves people and breaks to think of anyone going to hell.

I hope there is a time for all before that time, in that time where every knee will bow,that maybe there is an opportunity for redemption.  Judas knew who Jesus was and I pray he repented before he took his life.

If not, then his whole  purpose was to know Jesus, to betray him, but never to be with Him in heaven. This breaks my heart, even as I trust God with wisdom and knowledge and compassion I can’t begin to know.

Lord, let me never forget and always remember, You loved me before I ever repented. You loved your enemies and those that would betray you. You are the lover of our souls Lord, help us to love our Judas’ as much as we love our Mary’s.  Amen. 

 

 

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A New Thing

4 Feb

My journey the past nine months has been quite rough in many ways.  There were so many hardship’s in such a short time, but in true God fashion, the suffering provided a truth so powerful, and a true healing in a heart so broken, so beaten by this world.

My bottom came after the hurricane this fall.  I had a bit of a breakdown at that time. I was coming out of trauma and I hit a bottom that required counsel, it was pretty intensive counsel but so valuable. When you build your foundation on Christ, and the Holy Spirit dwells within you, you will not be able to stay stuck in a place of dark. He won’t let you run away, He won’t let you avoid truth. There is a purpose for this.  He will humble you, He will lead you to submit it all to Him once again. We all hit our bottom during every life trial; A place where we have to face ourselves, our beliefs and our God.

As I processed through, I realized just how weak the flesh is. There comes a point in every trial that you absolutely have to take your eyes off of what has been done and truly face God one on one. You will come to the crossroad where hurt and truth collide and you must choose a direction.

At a certain point you realize the battle isn’t with anyone else. The battle is with the lies of Satan, deeply held beliefs and strong holds of idols.  For me, I felt like such a failure in my walk with Christ. I felt I should have been more resilient in my devastation; more hope filled: more grace, less hurt, less anger.  Because of who He is, though, I found truth, His truth and His peace on the other side of that process.

No matter how far we walk out in our faith, we will still have battles to face. I think they get harder actuallly. We will continue to struggle with our flesh, Satan will continue to come at us, and this world will try to seduce us, trip us up.  No matter how far we journey with Him, our need for Him will only grow deeper. Our souls will thirst for more.

I journeyed through the mountain, not around it, I faced that mountain head on. We hit the end of us, and submit it all to the cross.  I was shown clearly the un-forgiveness I held and my lack of faith.  I had to begin to trust in God when I wasn’t sure where He was in all of this. I uncovered old wounds of un-forgiveness;  for myself, for God. I was shown my idols of needing the tangible reassurance of man’s love and approval .  Oh, how easily manipulated I allowed myself to become for the hope of being lovable, to not be rejected; the validation that I was enough.

As a Christ follower, our whole faith walk centers on the fact that Christ loves us even in our sinful state, enough to die for us and set us free.  He showed me my little faith.  Here I am chasing after broken people begging for approval and validation that I am worth something, when He literally died for me.  The conviction in that alone is devastating.  I didn’t trust God!  I was the emotion led girl, listening the words of “Broken Together” by Casting Crowns, believing and hoping in things that truly were not tangible, but not believing in a God that showed off for me constantly. That hurts to see my unbelief so blatantly. When honestly, I love God more than anything. I am just that much more in need of Him and His redeeming love.

God’s Word shows us pure love and tells us our worth. He sacrificed His son for us. Jesus took the punishment we deserve, and literally suffered incredible atrocity and died for us. He tells us we are more precious than rubies!  I reminded my friend recently, rubies were so rare that only King’s wore them and not coincidentally, rubies are red like the blood of Christ.

As that precious stone, loved by our Creator, a woman that walks with Jesus needs to know she is cherished and bought for a very high price. She is rare and precious to God. She can rest in Him because He knows the plans He made for her life. His promises are true and his provision is steady.  This all matters to Him, very, very much.

It was only last night that I realized I have gone through to the other side of my mountain now. What remains is a steady peace and a rebuilding, unshakable joy.  Little pop quizzes may come up, but I am resting in Him fully, once again. The Holy Spirit is so present and palpable. I feel so incredibly loved and filled to overflowing with His presence.

He is going to do powerful things for us, in this time. He has had enough and it is showing. The shaking is happening right now.

How precious is the Grace of God? His Mercy is so powerful.  We will be constantly redirected to the truth of Him, reminded over and over again, this is all about Him.

Amen.

A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Proverbs 31:10

Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Proverbs 31:30

All that My Father gives Me will come to Me; and the one who comes to Me I will most certainly not cast out [I will never, never reject anyone who follows Me]. John 6:37

I love you, Lord; you are my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me, and my place of safety.  Psalm 18:1-2