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Shift Change

3 Sep


It took many years for me to understand who Jesus is, who He said He is.  Surrender was difficult and honestly only happened from despair.  Religion had clouded the truth of the cross so completely,  it became about how we appear to the world, not the simple (yet so difficult) act of a sinner accepting Jesus as her savior.

I didn’t understand that Grace is Grace, that I don’t have to earn my salvation. My blessings are not earned. He doesn’t punish me, nor remove His blessings. “Jesus Christ, the same yesterday and today and for ever.“ Hebrews 13:8 

He already won the war I was still fighting. How many of us are trying to be good enough?  That belief didn’t do anything but frustrate me, because it meant my imperfection and sin kept me from salvation. I also had this hole, this place of loneliness, of not being enough, of anger at not being able to find joy, or peace. Happiness was fickle.

Until the night I surrendered the heartbreaking, defeating strive to earn His love, to being good enough, to just believing Him when He said, “My Grace is sufficient” (2 Corinthians 9).

He spent the next few years slowly healing me.  I had to spend that time with Him as well,  but I wanted to. I loved hearing the word in church, but also talking to Him. Learning to just sit and feel His love was healing all in itself. I suddenly began to not feel so alone.

I read the Jesus Calling devotional. It became my daily time to read, to meditate and to look up scripture.  Slowly, I began to be transformed. Slowly, I grew in understanding. Sin fell away as I went deeper. Lies became truths, resentments healed, forgiveness became necessary, and peace settled on my heart. I stopped reacting to the world and began seeking His calm when I didn’t have any, His hope when I felt hopeless, His love when I was feeling unloved.  I wanted to know Him more, I wanted to understand more.

As He healed my broken insides, there came the desire to share this amazing Hope. The hope from Grace is like none other. It became less about me, more about Him. The transformation continued. Even this sharing was still about me and my journey.
Slowly, that stopped being enough, purpose began to come to the surface. My time here on this earth, this time of grace and understanding wasn’t about me. My war had been won. My major transformation time evolved to my purpose here. I felt the need to share my testimony, what he did for me, my journey with Him, in the hopes that those caught between faith and doubt would understand what took me so long to learn and truly unlearn.

There is nothing you can do to earn it, there is nothing you can do to lose it. You are never too far gone to be saved. Never too perfect  to not need Christ to enter Heaven. Religion isn’t Faith. Religion tends to be about doctrine and laws. Christ fulfilled the Law. What the law does is create more sin, our world will show you just how much religion can get in the way of who Christ is.  If you believe in Him, you are saved. But! my gosh!… there is a rich and beautiful calling on your life. Not financial, not health, not perfect. Purpose. Healing. Hope. Joy. Peace that surpasses all understanding. Forgiveness.

What the total surrender to and acceptance of Grace creates is a place for Him to begin His work in you; the Holy Spirit enters and dwells upon your heart and you are never alone again. My cup overflows with the Joy of the Lord just writing this.  You have that calling, if you listen. That longing, that need. That is God. He is waiting on the steps, watching for his prodigal son/daughter to appear on the road a long way off… coming towards Him. He will run to you and embrace you from there.

You do have to surrender to Him. You must grasp that He truly died for you and because He did that, by your faith in the power of the cross, builds the bridge for what you can’t do for your self. Be sinless enough.

“Turning a car on but staying park, doesn’t get you anywhere. You have to put it into gear in order to move forward”. (heard on JoyFM)

John 3:16-20 (NLT)

16 “For this is how God loved the world: He gave[a] his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. 17 God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him.18 “There is no judgment against anyone who believes in him. But anyone who does not believe in him has already been judged for not believing in God’s one and only Son.

Romans 3:20-24 (NLT)

20 For no one can ever be made right with God by doing what the law commands. The law simply shows us how sinful we are.

Christ Took Our Punishment

21 But now God has shown us a way to be made right with him without keeping the requirements of the law, as was promised in the writings of Moses[a] and the prophets long ago. 22 We are made right with God by placing our faith in Jesus Christ. And this is true for everyone who believes, no matter who we are.23 For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard.24 Yet God, in his grace, freely makes us right in his sight. He did this through Christ Jesus when he freed us from the penalty for our sins.



We Are Blessed

9 Jun

My love story with the Holy Spirit has been incredible. The Holy Spirit has been all things in my life. I have spent every day in communication with my Father, with my Savior, and with my strength and compass, the Holy Spirit. I have stumbled and fallen, and I have this peace and joy in my heart with Him so near. God promised to provide for my needs and He has fulfilled His promise to me, even when I have panicked and doubted Him. He is so near when I am lost or scared, calming all my fears. When I am lonely, there is a presence so close, His fragrance is here. He has never once, let me down. Not once. He has put incredible situations and people in my life, to teach me, to love me and to be His mirror.

I have danced with Him, sang to Him and with Him, sat in silence with Him, watched the beauty of His creations together, in a sunset, a rainbow, a child. I’ve shared beautiful meals with Him, He gave me a song, our song from the first day I began this amazing journey with Him. I have been madly in love for 4 years.
He has kept every promise to me. He was and is, so close to this broken hearted, beloved child of God. Now I am a mature, blessed, grateful woman in Christ. I stumble still, and always will, I am not perfect and never will be. He has provided amazing leadership, and especially Godly mature friendship to lift me up, speak truth into my life, love, laughter, tears and to rejoice with.

God said it wasn’t good to be alone. Yet, to share this walk with someone, I struggle with feelings that I am cheating on The Lord. He has been my husband, my lover, my friend, my protector, my everything. I also struggle with fear. When I step back and see all He has blessed me with, outside of me but especially within me, there should be no fear in me. He will bring me someone perfect. Someone to learn with, grow with, to encourage and be encouraged, and mostly to enrich the ministry in which He has designed us for.

I am not above being tempted, though He gave us instruction to reach out in prayer and guidance so I can continue to walk in my faith, even if it hurts. God may be a jealous God, but only when we are longing for what He has not given us. It is difficult to be obedient, it is difficult to be in this world and His.There is no conviction in that, no wrong. There is only Love in that. It is a journey, a discovery, because when we are obedient, the favor is 10 fold.

This is a beginning, a new journey. It may not have an end or may end tomorrow, but what I know for sure, this is still the path that God has chosen for me and He wants to bless us, to heal the broken hearted. As long as He is at the center, as long as obedience reigns, He will bestow great reward; the blessing of restoration, of hope, of sweet healing and possibility. He wants us to be fully aware of Him at every moment of every day, at every conversation, every gentle touch, every new discovery.

We are blessed.

Matthew 5:3-5(MSG)
“You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.
“You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.
“You’re blessed when you’re content with just who you are—no more, no less. That’s the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can’t be bought.

Psalm 34:18 (MSG)
If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there;
if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.

Psalm 34:18(NIV)
18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Psalm 106:1(MSG)
Thank God! And why?
Because he’s good, because his love lasts.
But who on earth can do it—
declaim God’s mighty acts, broadcast all his praises?
You’re one happy man when you do what’s right,
one happy woman when you form the habit of justice.

Psalm 106:1 (NIV)
Praise the Lord.
Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
his love endures forever.

Philippians 2:1-4(MSG)
If you’ve gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don’t push your way to the front; don’t sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don’t be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.

Philippians 2:1-2(NIV)
Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind.